...It's numbing to see the numbers of crimes against Goth increase. What is more disturbing are the wars that we wage among ourselves. Kind of like a bad joke, when I read or hear things that happen to our own kind, it makes me feel and remember not-so-great times I have been through. Fights(bad ones), stereotypes, the name calling, fearing for my life -yep, as a Goth, I have been through it all.
It does not make me important, special, or anything to share my story (I don't guess). But for those of you, who are Goth, and have experienced less than what you expected because of bad things, remember you are not alone. I'm not trying to preach to the choir, but until better examples can be set for our kind within and without our ranks, and losing of the cynicism and hate -we still have a very unfortunate fight on our hands. I myself am not against a good fight, but, there is a time and place for everything, and we have to be very careful which battles we choose to engage ourselves in.
Watching the TV, knowing friends are over-seas -the ongoing wars and political struggles...how many times do you see people shot down by automatic gun fire that the chill of death rolls over you and makes you ill?
All across the country every group fighting for their own little piece of right, and me -a nobody- fighting to survive in life myself, without much to speak of, dreaming in the midst of chaos.
Watched a funeral procession,...and there were many cars, and...when I die or my family dies(what family is left) there probably won't be many in attendance. We might not even be able to afford graves. Although, when I die, I want a Viking Funeral Pyre, and let my ashes be carried away on the wind. Even if I have not been welcomed as being some kind of warrior in this life, maybe I will be granted passage to the places where warriors and Gods drink and make merry. Perhaps I will find a woman in death for which I could not find in life.
I also want to remind you that Goth can be beautiful without gore, violence, and of the harshest aspects of our reality, although, it should serve to remind you of the world we live in, and what things and behaviors should be avoided at all costs.
It is because of a very bitter tragedy that I have oddly experience today that, I wanted to reach out to those of you who are fighting for your lives, your expressions, and your own ways of life. Be strong, call yourself to arms and fight with great strength.
Maybe there is truth in that, "It is always darkest before the dawn."
As always, "Long live the Fighters, and, if you are reading my words, you are the resistance."